My days are filled with these two. They are the loves of my life and I wouldn’t trade what I do for anything in the world.
But lately some of my days have been filled with a sense of isolation from the rest of the world. They are filled with the everyday routine stuff that never end.
Simple necessary chores that fall on my shoulders like dressing my daughter everyday sometimes becomes just one more thing I HAVE to do. Just like the dishes or laundry. But unlike laundry and dishes, thank god I can make this one tiny chore a little more interesting. So some days you see these in my pictures. I’m not sure I know what season it is right now looking at her
Pick ups and drop-offs to and from school exhaust me some days. And he JUST started Kindergarten. How am I going to get through another 18 years??
We wait everyday at the same spot for Rex to walk out after the bell rings. She loves it. And unlike me, loves the routine of it all
We have constant battles now over the iPad, TV and Wii time.
And that’s not even covering making dinner and picking up the same toys 5 times a day every day
Even my outlet of shooting pool doesn’t keep that feeling of isolation away lately
I think mostly I just feel different than other moms. I don’t know anyone quite like me and I won’t lie, I’m constantly looking for her.
Photographs her kids every chance she gets.
Is involved in her kids school.
Loves getting dressed up for the occasional Happy Hour.
Knows who Captain Panaka is.
A gadget geek and certified web junkie.
She’s out there right? Maybe I’ll meet her one day.
I know this post seems a little depressing. Maybe I’m just in a little bit of a rut. Trust me, some days I do wish I could escape my life for a short while
Grizz is great. My kids, with all the normal difficulties that come with raising young children, are also amazing. I guess some days I get lonely for someone to connect with on my level.
I definitely don’t want to live my life feeling like there’s something better out there. Because let’s face it, what I have is pretty awesome a lot of the time. So I try and remind myself that every time a day gets too overwhelming.
So yesterday, instead of making dinner, I took the kids outside, poured paint on the side walk, pulled out a few pieces of white cardboard for canvases and told them to paint with their hands and feet
It was quite the mess, but what wonders it does for your soul to watch your kids laugh, play in bright colored paints
Activities like these always remind me of the important things in life -
Insane messes to clean up after! LOL Just kidding
That when I hear my kids laugh. And I watch them just revel in something simple like 3 bottles of paint and some cardboard. I just don’t feel quite as lonely anymore
So we had leftovers for dinner and Grizz had to fix his own last night since we didn’t have enough for him when he got home. But after reading this, I hope he’s ok with that now
Don’t get me wrong though, I’m still looking for her. That mom like me.
Until I meet her, I guess I’ll just join my kids and paint with my hands and feet too next time